Day 4 AT HOME?

Here I am on day 4 of being at the townhouse. It really does not feel like HOME now. GOOD. I am looking forward to selling it and moving on. The big job is really turning into a fairly manageable job (I think). That feeling of being overwhelmed is starting to go away. Now if I can just sell it in a reaslonable amount of time, that would be great. Less than $500,000.00 with 3 bedrooms. And my room is the gem of all the rooms. Beautiful view, light and sunny when the sun shines.

Psych Hospital

Here I am 2 months later having been in the "Health Centre" at VGH. Was good for a lot of things. Need and want people to be around me. Try to figure out how to live with other people. Maybe get a 1 bedroom apartment after you sell house and then start looking for a better arrangement. In the mean time you may find that you can do the "alone" thing if you have plenty of activities.

middle of the night anxiety ...

good remedies for middle of the night anxiety. play AnxietyEase, put on sandals and take a walk. anxious that i will run out of things to do. if you take a walk you'll never run out of things to do. starting to feel horny @ 12:16am not good. Bing now. good.

REAL worry about my LIFE ...

i'm starting to really worry about what i'm doing now. felt really sad when i saw the Downtown Toyota ad in the newspaper i'm using for my pants. those people there were really nice to me all the time.
is it just winter and there are so few people around here? i feel real PANIC in the afternoons. maybe use your AnxietyEase when you start to feel like that. OR get out and see some people on my favorite walk - use BOTH. take walk, come back and if still feel anxious listen to CD (on computer now since my CD's haven't arrived yet or my Union Suit)
is bloody Canada Post just at a snail's pace?. surely my Union suit will not come by Canada Post - why is it taking so long? look into it. taking long time or am i just impatient? the fact is that this time is a real PERIOD of adjustment. take ONE DAY AT A TIME and decide how to handle it as it comes. David moving out and taking retirement almost simultaneously is a real reason to feel this way. so try and understand that you're feeling the way you need to feel. go and see someone?

Iron Age ME ...

Julia @ the British Museum answered ME, whoopee!

i got a wonderful answer to my BM post. now i am in contact with the people i WANT to be in contact with. i will follow-up on all of Julia's suggestions. my response was perfect. "i live in Canada ..."

sleep worry

here i am again worrying about my bloody SLEEP. it's hard to get used to the new pattern of 1st and 2nd sleeps. realistically it's working very well. i have my 1st sleep for about 3 hours, get up and am very productive. then i have my 2nd sleep for about 4 hours. seems to be a well developed pattern. SO WHY AM I WORRIED all the time about it? you are just so used to worry, i guess. many things have changed but that one will have to wait for change. in the mean time, try to not get in such a flap about it.